Eugene Cho

hate-o-meter

Life has been full. There is rarely a dull day these days. But both in stillness and busyness, I’m amazed and humbled.

But over the past year, I’ve been feeling a sense of heaviness and burden in the midst of great amazement of God’s faithfulness and provision over my life.

It’s something I haven’t experienced before. In fact it’s really hard to describe but it’s a growing burden and heaviness that I’m just learning how to deal with.

What is it?

It’s the heaviness, pain, and at times, loneliness, of sensing that there are people that actually want you to fall and fail. Again, it’s hard to describe with words. I’m not certain if it’s jealousy, envy, uncertainty, or just simply animosity but it is difficult to grasp.

Some of it comes with the territory of being in leadership. But there’s a newer experience that is very foreign to me that has come along with the increase of my visibility and publicity in certain subcultures…

One way I’ve chosen to respond to the external scrutiny is to internally examine my heart. In the name of being “friendly”, I find it certainly easy to appear friendly or generous but beyond appearance, the big gut-check question I want to have the courage to ask myself is this:

Do I really want ______ to be blessed?

And by “to be  blessed”, I mean…

Do I really want to see _____ prosper in the Lord?

It’s not just merely a desire to bless others but I’ve come to learn that in wanting to truly bless and love others, it’s one of the manners by which God liberates us to experience the freedom we have in His grace.

I loved this wisdom from Rev. Run of  Run DMC:

There’s a very simple way to tell how great you’re doing. Just check the hate-o-meter.

So, do yourself a favor and check your hate-o-meter…

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13 Responses

  1. mo says:

    Yeah I’ve been stopped in my tracks before by asking those questions. Bible says to pray for our enemies as well as friends, and I think Jesus expects us to do it sincerely.

    Press on, man.

  2. dmbaldwin says:

    Hey Eugene,
    I’m going to say the same thing to you that I have said to Charles Lee. I would love to just carry your bags for you! The next time you are going somewhere of doing something BIG just give me a call and I’ll come along just to carry your luggage.
    That’s how much I believe in you and what you are doing. Blessings on you today brother.
    Dave

  3. Ben@TIC says:

    Yeah, I struggle with the same issues as a teacher. Do I continue to teach those students that directly inhibit my ability to teach? Do I try my best to cast them out? I pray and examine my heart and put God’s love ever before me. The Lord give us strength!

  4. your friend says:

    I walk in your shoes for many years. The only solution is giving GRACE to those guys. They desperately NEED grace! And I need God’s grace to be able to GIVE grace. Trust me, I have had a tough year in that shoe!

  5. BarbE says:

    Your post made me laugh first, thru the honesty of my own hate-o-meter, but the examine truly my heart TY!

  6. Wil says:

    Hater gonna hate…

    Don’t hate the playah, hate the game!

  7. DK says:

    oh man.. glad you posted this. i don’t know why i’ve been sensing that in my own life but it’s in little ways and like you said, it’s hard to describe. I think the hard-ass in me wants to just blow everyone out of the water but the questions you asked are necessary as well

    i believe in you and i for one have never taken a sip of the Eugene Cho Hater-ade. peace homiee

  8. Kathryn says:

    You’re under a large spot light, PE. A little grace for yourself is OK. Keep on keep’n on…

  9. uno says:

    i’m a big hater. and yep, the thought of God blessing _________ really made me want to throw things at walls… so i know how that goes too

    hate is so surprising. i remember telling some friends, “dang, i never knew i could be so ugly, i didn’t know i could hate so hard.” and one friend replied “just as much as you love deeply can you hate deeply.” and then i wanted to throw something again cos i didn’t want to admit to having loved deeply.

    give a listen to jon foreman – equally skilled, revenge, and somebody’s baby.

  10. Angie C says:

    Uhm, from what I remember, Run DMC meant “check your hate-o-meter” to mean, if you’re getting hated on a lot, you’re doing well for yourself … because the more your prosper the more people will hate you.

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