For the second time within the last few weeks, someone threw a rock into the church staff offices this morning. To clarify, someone threw both a BRICK and a rock. The first time, I was hoping it was a random drive by rock throwing…
It’s a sucky feeling. Your mind races why someone would do this…
- Was the sermon that bad last Sunday?
- Is it because we’re removing the pews next month?
- Was someone drunk and upset that the Mariners got shut out by the Angels last night?
- Is it my facial hair and sideburns?
- Was it a cafe customer unhappy with their double tall 2% hazelnut latte with light foam?
I shouldn’t speculate but how can you not? As the “lead” pastor, one of my privileges is to care for and protect the staff as I desire to be protected and cared for. Someone [if anyone was sitting there at the time] could have been seriously hurt. I don’t like to have rocks thrown at me [let alone a brick] but without sounding too dramatic, I’d rather people throw them at me rather that my family, children, or church. Better yet, don’t throw anything. Just email your frustrations – but DO NOT mention my children or their names.
As I speculate, I have to ask, “Is it me?” I hope not, but I wonder…
In blogoland, the past six months have been somewhat intense. Much of it has been because of three posts on this blog: The Gay Conversation, Prayer for Korean Hostages in Afghanistan, and Make Sense of Virginia Tech. On the most part, there were some good dialogue but also lots of intense private emails into my inbox:
Eugene, you’re too liberal, too conservative, too Asian, too UnAsian, too emerging, too tall [ok, not this one], too ungracious, too gay, too ungay, too political, too racial, too [insert word here] and so forth.
Interestingly, much of my criticism comes from Christians. Go figure. I don’t mind these emails; I appreciate people willing to share their thoughts. But a few, which I will not publish, have gone overboard.
I’ve been debating this for the past several months but after a couple random phone calls to the house, some borderline scary emails, and couple rocks along the way, and consulting with some other bloggers, I’m going to make couple small changes. I’m obviously going to keep blogging as I enjoy sharing my vomitaceous thoughts as I wrestle with God’s larger narrative story, engaging culture, wrestling with faith, and other random musings. But I feel like I need to make slight modifications to do my part to protect my family – just in case. And this is something that my wife asked about since her blog is only accessible by those who she gives permission to. Someday, I’ll share a scary situation from eight years ago but that’s another post. I’ve removed all my children’s names and photos on the blog and from the church website. If I know you and you’re not a potential rock thrower, you’re more than welcome to hit me at facebook.
I really want to believe it was some random jerk throwing a brick. I’m sure it was. But just in case:
This is the personal blog of Eugene Cho. The views, words, posts, thoughts, and ideas represented here are my own, not those of Quest Church, Q Cafe, my family, my ethnic Korean countrypeople, the city of Seattle where I live, the USA of which I am a citizen, or the totality of the Christian faith and community. As I spew out some vomitaeous thoughts for conversation, connection, amusement, and critical discourse, I seek to grant and receive grace.
In other words, please don’t throw rocks.